Valentine Monday Blues
It's not a catastrophic matter when we as human beings, occasionally do have blues. I know this is just plainly normal.
As for the time being, this blog is my platform.
This morning I feel so.. blue. I have a reasonably bad PMS, I argued with Bigfish, I'm upset and my workload is massive, I had a meeting with client that I had to pretend confident, happy and professional but in fact, inside I was screaming.
To make it worse, it's Valentine's Day ie the day to celebrate love.
I literally feel my heart sinking down to the ground every time I walk around.
On this day, I choose not to allow the pessimist thoughts take over my mind and body, and that I decide to stay cool.
It's truly difficult to your mental and well being acting you're okay when you're actually really not, but somehow I always practice this one remedy and it helps. I lace my negativity mode with the feeling of gratefulness (bersyukur). And I feel better.
Not a lot better, but when you still thank God despite the shortcoming of events or problems you have to face in your life or which have been given to you, naturally the feeling itself will soothe and comfort you. Of course it takes time for a wound to heal, but if nursed and taken care with the right way, before long we will realise it's just how life is. There are joys, hiccups, beauties and tragedies.
Then I recall my prayers to God. I've always used to pray for happiness and smoothness in everything I do, besides continuously asking for His Blessings. But I'm still the same, here I am with my decent executive job, I'm not rich and still cannot afford to buy so many things that i want, I still have arguments with my boyfriend, I think my life is far from perfect.
Then I've come to realise that no, I cannot say that my prayers are not granted. Maybe the happiness doesn't always have to come in the form of wealth or great boyfriends. Or the ability to buy nice branded bags and clothes and car. Not to mention the perfect life that I want and imagine, in fact everyone imagines a simply perfect life!
I'm grateful because God grant me strength to go through these difficulties. And since I'm aware of this, this is my reason to be happy. There, happiness can be translated and taken in many ways. Some people may take this as total craps and nonsense, but I'm glad I finally managed to nurture my soul to remain grateful during trying times like now. I hope I will be able to stay this way.
No wonder people say count your blessings, sometimes it's not about being pious or angelic, it's indeed a remedy for the soul.
I wish all lovers around the world a fantastic time celebrating the day to remember the most beautiful precious gift for mankind, LOVE.

