Adalah dengan itu..

When I looked at the calendar just now, I realized that I am now just counting days to be wedded to a guy who crazily proposed to me. And when the day comes, there falls the five rukuns of nikah, the bride, groom, 2 witnesses and the wali. Also a mosque, but this one not a rukun, just a monument where that special event will be taking place.

Unlike the norm of other Malay wedding ceremonies, at least come together with a pair of big festive kenduris and all, mine will not have that. It’s going to be just one consolidated reception of mine and Bigfish’s sides, attended by mainly our families and close friends. Basically, it’s an intimate occasion to engrave the memory of that day, when two persons, two souls, merge as one. Just the way I picture the whole thing to be, small and beautiful.

Here I am, writing to sincerely apologize to any readers, especially my current colleagues, ex colleagues in Times, my ex college and university friends, my dear ex schoolmates d’ STF gals, friends everywhere, each and everyone of you…

I’m sorry that I couldn’t invite many of you to my wedding in June. I really appreciate all the wishes, advice, guidance, pointers and most importantly the blessings from all of you. Thank you very very much.

Have a blissful day everyone!

..mad and knackered

Yayayayaayayaya…

Yes, true, this blog is not happening at all. But then again, it’s mine. And if the captain is soo not happening, ‘pening’ got la because being overloaded with work all the time, … what to do right.

So here it is, another post dedicated to no one else but me, to put myself back on the ground. To keeping track of what had happened to me lately, or just came across my path.

I’m still getting married, ya, despite a few huge rows that I had with Bigfish. That said, I’m still as short / hot tempered as ever. And never change. And wanting to change. So I really hope someday I will change.

Actually, I’m the one who’s always been difficult. I’m impossible. I tend to get angry over little things, and unfortunately Bigfish has to take all of it. My spared, previous or even future anger (that happens when I’m worried about something and I know I’ll be angry later), all were shoved down to Bigfish. Pity him to have a girlfriend like me. Oops, no, fiancé.

O ya, that is also one issue. The other day I introduced him to a long time friend as my boyfriend, by mistake, and he unpleasantly highlighted that to me later. And I scolded him back. See, what a bitch I am. Can I call this uncontrollable ‘anger attack’ as jitters? Yea I know that’s one unreasonable irresponsible lame excuse.

I’ve been extremely up to my eyeballs especially these two weeks. The wedding preps, marriage forms, the exam preps, the anonymous preps, the never ending workload…. God, I feel so knacked it’s draining. I even look ugly these days, like something caught up in a drain. Hair is now frizzier than ever, and just last night I noticed my face looks like a portion of ground from Jelebu, when I scratch it leaves a line. You know, even my face needs rain!

I sat for TOEFL last Tuesday and GRE paper on the day after. That’s why today I feel more relieved and a bit loosen up. It feels like just let go of a Kancil that was parking on my shoulder. TOEFL was fine but the latter one was bloody tough. Y’know, to me. The strange-sounding English words (ie. crepescule or moribund or cantankerous …. Shoot!) and the quantitative test was like what??!! Ni hape nih, janjang? Persamaan serentak yg complicated? Log log yg memang naik lalog kapla memikirkannya?! Hishh..sedangkan masa blaja pon dah agak biol mende2 nih, ni plak skarang yg dah nyanyuk nihhh..

Hahaaa, just imagine. I was close to breaking the PC yet I remained calm and collected and blasah the questions like mad. ( It was a CAT, Computer Adaptive Test, the more stupid you are, the easier the questions get. If you’re clever, the questions will try to fuck you until you get it wrong, y’know something like that)

Like I promise, to whoever would like to see some pictures of mine wearing almost white, here it is, http://freelancer79.fotopages.com.
Hmm, this is too advance from what I promised. I mentioned to officially disclose my engagement photos after the birth of my first grandchild, didn’t I?

Hehehehehehahahahahahah… have a good one, people!